Thoughts

EXISTENCE

 

 

Human existence is a curse or a boon, is often asked but it depends on the individual how he/she accepts it. Life is very unpredictable and there are many who have accepted this but am I one of them? Do I know, with what I have , am I satisfied?? Why am I unhappy? Are my hopes too high ?? Am I exceptional? or I misinterpreted the facts? These are one of the thousand questions that sweep through my mind all day. I am jobless, I am no where in this world. Even your closest ones sometimes remind you of your non existence.

It is true that the world listens to ones who who 'exists' in this society. Being at home, cooking meals, doing household jobs, does it tell you that you 'Exist'? Does it gives you the right to express your opinion in any matter? The answer is NO. The world recognizes only the ones who are capable of supporting monetarily. Charity work doesn't counts except for the celebrities.

Sometimes, you feel that you are at mercy for love, affection and all your basic needs. You weren't like this 2 years back. You had dreams, you were full of confidence, you were so sure of your 'existence'. What happened??? Where are they?

I have no answer. I feel that something in me has died . I don't know how can I revive them. I have everything - a loving husband , a loving family... but still unhappy for myself.